I remember....

Today... after months of neglecting a lost friend.. i will find solace in writing again... i know i've been most irritating... coz i haven't really bothered to write much here for a long time... so i'll try filling up a lil more space today...

You must always remember... no matter how insignificant the matter is... today i will remember those small moments that sometimes, we forget but make all the difference..


I remember...

1. My uncle who used to take me out for rides when i was little... a girl of 3... and how he used to play wit me... lifting me up in the air... and how he passed on suddenly... when i was getting ready for school... one morning... tying my shoe laces... i was in UKG... and i was whisked away b4 it cud sink in. Eventually, they said he had gone abroad... a lie most adults think will protect kids from pain. but it doesn't.

2. My LKG and UKG teacher who looked after me like her own child. Thank you Miss. Shashi Jayaraj. I still remember you.

3. My mother teaching me maths and me begging her not to hit me because i JUST COULDN'T get those sums into my head.

4. My dad cooking up stories to feed me my breakfast before i left to school

5. My aunt, who brought me up, getting married and leaving the city, leaving a huge house and a small heart empty

6. The day the most important person in my life, shedding tears because of me

7. Derick Stanley

8. The day Derick left

9. The day i attempted suicide, foolishly... now regretting it... but drinking in from the experience

10. The day my friend gifted me a rubber.. which i still keep treasured.

11. My new school... 9th standard... trying to make friends

12. 10th - 11th standard.... gang of girls who did everything together

13. Miss. Soans.... opening up my eyes to what i loved most... writing. I looked upon her as a mentor, and still do.

14. My emotionally unstable brain that lapsed from chronic depression to extreme happiness

15. Kripa and the unforgettable episode that followed...

16. Board exams.... determination... rage... a fire to prove myself

17. Proving myself... go against every pre determined notion about me... the satisfaction of being looked up by for the first time in 16 years

18. College... indecisive.. crushed... depressed... again

19. Making friends... again

20. Gang of 3 who did.. still do.. things together...

21. Catastrophic episodes... again....

21. finding a place where i am appreciated... a place where i feel like giving my best... for the very first time

22. Making my dad proud... for the very first time

23. Self confidence is at a high... for the very first time

24. Self realization and awareness at a high... for the very first time

25. Finding a new teacher... one who has helped me open up completely and is still helping... who was instrumental yet only incidental in changing me....

Yes... i remember... and will continue to do so... for the rest of my life...

Work of art....

I edited the movie, 'The Notebook' to the song Maroon 5 - She Will Be Loved

Old mails

I've been very bad to this blog. The fact is, i have just been myself. I am the kind of person who gets bored of things very easily. But, the fact that i rejoice when i remember old memories is also as confusing as my reason to get bored. Today, by chance, while i was checking my yahoo account i had a journey to the past, up until 2004. My life then seemed so different that i don't remember living it, comparing it to the way i am now. The number of random mails from random guys who either saw me at some net cafe or just 'happened' to get my id from somewhere and my horribly stupid replies to them had me in peels of laughter. I also remembered old friends who were no longer in touch and remembered good memories with them.
Friends who used to never be able to live without talkin to me for atleast an hour everyday now seem to be so far away. Back then, we were a close group of 4 who had to talk to each other for hours everyday in order to survive. Life used to be so much simpler back in school. The close knit gang of girls who would do anything for me, the secrets, the crushes, the giggles... oh man what an adventurous school life i've had. Though there are huge chunks of bad memories that i would like to erase, there are so many parts that i would love to live through again.
The number of mails my friends sent when i would not pick up their calls or when they went on my id and saw my offline msgs by mistake or when they saw someother friend talkin to a guy... god, the list is endles... i so miss my tenth std... life only revolved around the coming board exams, my failing math preparations and my horrible experiences with tamil.... and obviously the opposite gender...
but now things are so much more complicated.... people have changed.... times haves changed... i have changed... those things that seemed so vital then now seem like nothing... i hate men, don hav to study any language again unless i want to, maths is nowhere an option anymore and i don prepare for my semesters anyway... things that are vital as of now are job opportunities, higher studies, expenditure, bla bla... these were things that seemed so far off then... i just wish time had stopped then... now things are much more complicated and everything seems like a mirage.... one minute its there and the next, its gone...
A treasure chest of memories are the only things that are left behind

You know your

Economics lecturer is dumb when:

1. She thinks inflation is good for the country

2. She calls 'Poverty Reduction Programs' as 'Poverty Development Programs'

3. Her idea of 'sustainability' is when 'i scold you today and i scold you tomorrow also. That is sustained development'

4. When all your doubts have only one answer 'i'll find out and tell you tomorrow ma'. But tomorrow never comes!

5. When she explains seasonal unemployment as 'unemployment in different seasons'

6. She starts lecturing about contraceptives to control population while talking about population explosion

7. She doesn't know the difference between liquid and liquidity

8. When you ask her for the important questions she says 'how should i know ma? am i setting the paper?' (hello!)

9. She runs out of the class in rage when the class starts arguing about her lame statements.

10. She reads this post and doesn't realise its HER!

Confessions of an absent minded protagonist

Uhh.... why am i writing this post again? :)

You know that

Exams are around the corner when:

1. You rummage through a heaped up mess in your room to find lost pages of your textbook (if u even have one that is!)

2. you suddenly want to be friends with the most studious girl/guy in class

3. you drink tea/coffee four times a day to keep yourself awake

4. when the clock strikes 10 p.m u start feeling sleepy, surprisingly!

5. the pages of your text book are full of doodles (means u've been to those pages!)

6. you look at your parents watching TV and wish you were them!

7. you shut all the windows in your room so that you don't hear children playing outside

8. one peep into your notes and you start YAWNING

9. it takes 10 minutes to sink one line into your head

10. you are always on time for meals!

11. you take a 2 hour break for one hour of studying

12. you pretend to be sick and later feel guilty!

13. you find stationary shopping a much needed break

14. you take the pain to read this crappy post! :)

You know you....

Have a Writer's Block when:


1. You have starting trouble with any sentence you write.

2. People have trouble explaining how bad your articles are that they actually take trouble finding a nicer word in the dictionary

3. friends stop asking you to write love letters for them

4. You rhyme pen with hen

5. you write random sentences and proudly call yourself an accomplished poet (but deep inside envy your earlier poems)

6. your murder story becomes the 'murdered' story

7. you sit prepared to write an essay and five minutes later you pick up the phone and dial your best friends number, never to think about the essay again!

8. you find a pool of crumpled paper around you and you realize you haven't even started

9. your pen stops writing when you start thinking...

10. you're writing a post on your blog similar to this one!!!

Random tries to update!

Here's one of those posts that i'm writing in just to keep in touch wit writing on the blog... oh boy! i can never maintain anything... but this time im' trying real hard!!! Yeah, so todays post is about how, unlike getting lost in the music, like most ppl do, i get lost in the lyrics of a song! :( .... yeah the sad smiley was unnecessary! but i really lose the song when i listen to the lyrics! MUMMY! I'm music impaired... actually not... i love music... can't stay in ma room without it!!! it has to keep playing on and on (dad thinks he lost 1/4th of his ability to hear coz of that!)...
Since i have a passion for writing and i concentrate alot on the use of words... i look at each word in a song and i relish the beauty of the words that adds so muchmeaning to the songs. I feel music is made more beautiful when it has beautiful lyrics to compliement it...

For example... I love Nickleback's 'Far away'... to tell you the truth i've been behind that song for two whole years, and im stil hopelessly addicted to it... the lines that really blew me away are:

"...Just one chance, just one breath,
Just in case there's just one left....

....I love you,
I have loved you all along.
I miss you,
Been far away for far too long.
I keep dreaming,
you'll be with me and you'll never go
Stop breathing,
If i don't see you any more.....

....With you,
I'll withstand all of hell to hold your hand.
I'd give it all, i'd give for us,
give anything but i won't give up......

......I wanted,
I wanted you to stay,
Cause i needed, need to hear you say,

I LOVE YOU....

.... I have loved you all along,
And i forgive you, for being away for far too long.
So keep breathing, cause i'm not leaving you anymore,
Beliving, u'll hold on to me and never let me go....."

Amazing aren't they? They've had me hooked for so long that i'm convinced no song can ever beat this in making me gaga for a lifetime... Also, it somehow became the soundtrack of a movie i've been gaga about for time immemorial (3 yrs! :P )... The Notebook... the combo makes me swirl... ok i'm not making sense... but if only you knew :)

Another song, also related to The Notebook ( You tube version that is)..is Maroon 5's 'She will be loved'.... AMAZING lyrics!

'He was always there to help her, but she always belonged to someone else'
'I don't mind spending everyday,
out on your corner in the pouring rain,
look for the girl with the broken smile,
ask her if she wants to stay a while,
and she will be loved.'
'my heart is cold and my door's always open, you come anytime u want!'

You may think this craziness is only there when it comes to songs... but no, it doesn't limit itself there but goes on to movies also... i'm crazy about certain verses in movies... romantic ones especially (cough!cough!)

Quotes from The Notebook:
Duke (in voice-over narration): "I am no one special, just a common man with common thoughts. I've led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me, and my name will soon be forgotten. But in one respect, I've succeeded as gloriously as anyone who ever lived. I've loved another with all my heart and soul, and for me, that has always been enough."

Duke (reading): "It was an improbable romance. He was a country boy. She was from the city. She had the world at her feet, while he didn't have two dimes to rub together."

Duke (reading): They had their fights. Infact they barely agreed on anything. But the important thing is, they were crazy about each other!

Excerpt from a letter from Noah to Allie: "The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds. And that's what you've given me. That's what I'd hoped to give you forever."

Duke (to older Allie): "I think our love can do anything we want it to."

I told you..... thats how word crazy i am... thoughts penned down and now its times for me to sign off....hehehe... i know i made no sense... but atleast you'll know what a crazy person i am :)

Totally rare :)

Your Personality is Very Rare (INTJ)

Your personality type is logical, uncompromising, independent, and nonconformist. Only about 3% of all people have your personality, including 2% of all women and 4% of all men. You are Introverted, Intuitive, Thinking, and Judging.

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You Are a Colon

You are very orderly and fact driven. You aren't concerned much with theories or dreams... only what's true or untrue. You are brilliant and incredibly learned. Anything you know is well researched. You like to make lists and sort through things step by step. You aren't subject to whim or emotions. Your friends see you as a constant source of knowledge and advice. (But they are a little sick of you being right all of the time!) You excel in: Leadership positions You get along best with: The Semi-Colon

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Your Personality Is

Rational (NT) You are both logical and creative. You are full of ideas. You are so rational that you analyze everything. This drives people a little crazy! Intelligence is important to you. You always like to be around smart people. In fact, you're often a little short with people who don't impress you mentally. You seem distant to some - but it's usually because you're deep in thought. Those who understand you best are fellow Rationals. In love, you tend to approach things with logic. You seek a compatible mate - who is also very intelligent. At work, you tend to gravitate toward idea building careers - like programming, medicine, or academia. With others, you are very honest and direct. People often can't take your criticism well. As far as your looks go, you're coasting on what you were born with. You think fashion is silly. On weekends, you spend most of your time thinking, experimenting with new ideas, or learning new things.

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Lowe letter

After a looooooooooooooooooonnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnngggggggggggggggg time i'm writing in... due to no time (and basically laziness!)I have thoroughly ignored my bloggie (lmao!). i hereby present the belated Valentine's Day special..... LOWE letter by a manager (who has a habit of explaining EVERYTHING in nonsense english) to a gal (DUH!)
14 feb 08
From,
Rajesh,
1224,rojio road,
OFJGPJPO.,
Chennai

To,
Anitha,
Table before my table

Deer Lowes Anitha,
This is Rajesh who is writing you lowe litter (oops, letter)! Are you in the well? I am also in the well. Thank you. Father and mother ok? I just wanting your Friandship and LOWESHIP. Since it is being the Valentines day, which is also called as Lover's day, i am thinking about telling you about what i feeling for you.

Anitha, you are such a stoler. U stoling my heart and now it gone! I not finding it and now difficult to do anything, even live. I sincerely requesting you to finding it for me inside you and returning to me as soon as possible.

I am 29, illegible bachelor, who is not married and wanting wife. I applying in different areas but all getting rejected. Ore the shy is coming. I am the loving you since the day i saw you one week back sitting in the front of me. You are looking very the bootiful with nice long oily hair with flowers. I likeing you so much i loving you. I wanting to marry you. What u say? Will you marry me? I the looking forward for favorable reply.

Thanking you,

Yours Sincerely,
Rajesh