The Unapproachable, Not!

Well... thats not exactly me... but its supposed to be a caricature right?!? Whatever... anyway.. yeah... those are my kinda people... the glasses wearing, rarely smiling, speak when spoken to kind of people who aren't approached by the 'social' bunch.

What i'm trying to say is...well... today i asked one of my friends a doubt thats been eating me up for a long time... why people in a certain place, though free with the others, don't talk to me much.. its almost as if i'm an outcast in the place... i mean... i'm not a saint but i'm a nice enough person... or so i think... and what did she say? "Maybe they think your the studious nerdy kind who s not approachable! even i thought so in the beginning!"

Whoa!!! Not all glasses wearing girls need to be nerds right? i mean.. yes i'm hopelessly shy around people, very reserved... i do my work without talking... i don't do personal stuff during work... and yes, i don't socialize much unless i get really used to the people and the place... But that again is bcoz i'm very very very shy... i can't talk to new people even when they ask me... its just there... but that really doesn't mean i'm anti-social...

I guess there are millions of us 'outcasts' in all settings... well.. all i have to say to those who misunderstand our silence is 'tough luck' cause your probably missing a very special friend in the making...

I can adjust to any kind of situation providing i'm given time... but no, i don't form impressions about people and i don't like them doing the same either. I've heard so many times how friends who 've become really close now have told me "when i first met me i thought you were this really silent person with an attitude. i never liked u much"... now there's a shocker!

Anyway... i do agree... i don't really show the crazy, funny, sarcastic and social persona outside... i do behave like i hate humanity... but i really don't... i just find a pen and a keyboard more comfortable to share jokes and be myself than through the voice... and if people looked beyond the silence and the no-nonsense person they'd find a person just as crazy as them hiding inside...

Yeah,,, i'm getting all philosophical... lol... and no it doesn't suit my PERSHONALITY.... yes i spelt that wrong on purpose... now u know what kind of a person i am :) so its time for me to cheer up n be merry to welcome the new year! :)

And here's an Ode to getting (or trying to get) over my human-hating self into a approacher friendly person :P lol... like that ll happen in the near future...